Sad faces

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I'm hours away from turning 21 and I've been crabby for days. While most people look forward to hitting the bar scene and finally being able to attend the local watering hole with friends that are older than they, I find myself already bored with the prospect of being hit on by creepy men and spending way too much money in a place that's too smokey to be healthy. I'm not sure why I've been so down lately, trying desperately to make myself happier in some way, but it seems to be getting worse. I can't find any way to keep myself happy for more than a few hours at a time and I am beginning to wonder if it's more than homesickness and stress. I think I'm restless and bored with most everything. If I need a change in scenery it won't be happening any time soon. I do know one thing, something needs to change, and soon, or I might go certifiably insane!